So I've been outta sorts lately. There seems to be something in the air that has been making the lives of everyone I know fall apart. For me, I've been losing interest in following Weight Watchers strictly and staying on top of my running. I don't know why since I have lost 22 lbs in 11 weeks, which is 10% of my total weight when I started. That's amazing, and still I'm bored. So I wasn't tracking points, and I'm not looking things up, and I'm letting myself slide into my weekly points a bit too much. Right now I'm terrified of Wednesday's weigh-in! I need to recommit to the program, but stress is definitely messing me up right now!
It is almost October! Yikes! Normally I would be rejoicing, and I am so happy I could pee. The weather in Texas has called it quits on the heat a bit earlier this year, and I couldn't be happier! With toddler in tow, I was literally dancing down the aisles of my grocery store with sheer delight yesterday. I absolutley love Autumn. So why the 'yikes'? Well, we are getting ready to move to New Mexico at the end of November. That's a mere two months away! OMFG..... My house looks like it has exploded, I am taking waaaaaaaaaahahahaaaayyyyy too many classes that all require papers due at the same time, and I have made commitments to my friends and myself for these next few months. So I'm feeling the pressure. And I keep wondering, 'why MUST I do things the hard way?'
And then on top of all that other stuff, I just had my Mirena IUD taken out. But not in a misguided attempt to add the stress of a first trimester (read: fatigue, morning sickness, irritability, etc) to my long list, but in the hopes that I will be able to ditch the hormones in that thing. Sheesh! I never react well to hormones, so why did I think this was any different? I was wondering why I was always mean and snappish with my husband, and then I read that irritability is common. And I had stopped having periods... well, actually I hadn't had one since before I got pregnant (we're talking about 2 years here), and while I wouldn't use the word "miss", I definitely noticed that they weren't there, and it freaked me out. I know myself, and I am pretty dependable, so to be counting on them and get nothing really messed with my head. So I went to the doctor to have it removed. And then I got a lecture in how women naturally aren't supposed to have monthly periods. huh?? Yup, people, this male doctor told me that 100 years ago women went from knocked up to nursing, then right back to knocked up, so it;s not natural to have Aunt Flow every month. o_O ?? um, ok.... So I guess one can only infer that the natural state of womanhood is to be constantly pregnant. Yup, we are just breeding machines, and if it wasn't for the invention of the birth control pill we wouldn't have periods at all. So, I guess I was a medical miracle at 12 when I started all this cycling business... If only I'd have known, I would have gone on Oprah, wrote a book, and got a charity in my name! Sheesh..... men!
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